This or That

This really sucks:

• Not being able to do for myself.
• Being in lock down because of the rain.
• Feeling alone.
• Having to ask for help.
• Gaining weight.
• Having to wait it seems like an eternity before I'm up & going.
• Having to deal with childhood memories & feelings.
• Having my leg 1/2 inch longer-which is more like 2" because I am so small.
• Not having enough $$$ to pay the bills.
• Having a bad attitude.
• Last year loosing a baby & my fallopian tube.
• This year loosing my femur head & acetabulum.

That it's worth it:

• Doing more then I could the 1st week
• Like getting in & out of bed by myself.
• Getting to surf the web for hours & not feel guilty.
• Knowing that I have friends that care about me
• And meeting new ones on line that are going through the same thing.
• Family that will do anything for me. Even when I drive them NUTS.
• I'll be able to join the gym & work this hip weight off.
• I will be able to do so much more then before.
• Working through the past.
• Dr. said that the leg discrepancy will even out in several months.
• Getting at least some $$$ from EDD.
• Grateful for all the wonderful things in my life.
• My poodle is my kid.
• Going Bionic- the osteoarthritis is gone. No rain pain.